Failing to Kick the Habit

Remember that post last Saturday, "Trying to Kick the Habit"? Well, I haven't done anything I said I was going to do. The diet stalled before it got out of the driveway, I have done very little exercise, and I've been spending as much time as ever on the Nest's Trouble TTC board. I did stop temping, but only for four days.

Oh, and my cousin came back to stay with us for another month because she got a job — yay! I like having her here, but I'm much more likely to indulge in bad food (and bad TV) while she's around.

Let me tell you about the temping. Last Saturday it was CD32 and I was feeling pretty certain that I would not be ovulating this cycle. But it kept niggling at me — what if? It's hard not having that information when you're so used to it. And so, because apparently I'm an addict, I resumed temping on Thursday — just in time to see a temperature shift that has continued for five days now. It's not super high, but it's higher than my usual follicular phase temps.

So, I might have ovulated! Good, right? Well... maybe not. If I did ovulate last week, my next cycle will start about five days before my post-op appointment with Dr. L, and I might have to sit out yet another cycle. I guess I could call and beg for an earlier appointment, but I always feel like such a whiny, needy pain in the ass when I do stuff like that.

Trouble TTC @ The Nest

Before I get too far into this blog, I want to dedicate a post to the ladies on the Trouble TTC board at The Nest (who no doubt make up about 95 percent of whatever readership I will ever have). I couldn't ask for a better resource and support group. There's so much advice, kindness, and sympathy attached to an incredible amount of collective TTC wisdom.

Thanks to this board I understand so much more about what's happening with my body, what my doctor's talking about, and what my options are than I would otherwise. I never knew "research" could be so enjoyable (and even addictive).

It's amazing how wrapped up I become in these women's stories. I am regularly moved to tears when reading about their experiences: I celebrate with them, and I grieve with them. I have even met two wonderful Nesties in person.

I can't recommend this board enough to anyone dealing with fertility issues.